So college is going well. Starting to feel like i'm understanding what I'm doing now. Though I must say I'm finding one or two of the lecturers incompetent. For example one started her lesson by laying down the law, which is fair. However I did not appreciate how she had a preconceived opinion about us - she basically said that we were a bunch of slackers and was not going to stand for it. Note to Ms Patterson - we are not them! They are not us. We are all different. Get to know us before you judge us. We gave you a chance!

Applying to universities. Heard back from Abertay!! All I need is a pass and I am in Edinburgh rejected me! Oh well they were too prestigious anyway.

I am now finally 18 and can go out with friends...Only they don't go out anymore. Though I have a slight inclination that that has something to do with something else...Ok here's the story: girl meets boy, boy treats girl like crap, miraculously boy and girl become friends. This happens over a period of at least four years. Girl starts to like the boy, boy feels insecure and pushes her away. I get that sometimes feelings aren't shared, but isn't it possible to go back to the friendship you had or at least alter the friendship so BOTH of you are comfortable. Though looking on it now maybe i'd be better off without him. Do I really want to be around someone who is so terrified of human emotion? I'm not a robot...yet!

Other than that life is going pretty great. I'm on better terms with my mum these days. We can actually have a grown up conversation! My baby cousin is going to be one year old on valentines day! How cute is that? He's growing so big, just learning to walk right now. It's so fascinating to watch him progress. Maybe I can pinpoint where I went wrong! Hehe!

After a short hiatus I have decided to go back to the gym. My muscles are still aching!!! I hope to quit smoking soon too.

Watched an amazing film the other day! The blind side - it's such a touching story. I'm not going to spoil the plot, but I do recommend watching it. Found my old favourite movies last week: Homeward Bound. They're really entertaining! Talking dogs and a cat! Amazing.

I notice I haven't been doing many uploads so I want to appologise to my watchers for that. Life's a bit hectic and these days when I come across some time all I want to do is sleep. I'm also going to appologise to my watchers for having to read this. I just find it relaxing to rant here. You might not even read this, but at least I can pretend you have